I turned 40 last October. The big 4-0. Seems like a momentous time in a woman’s life, so I’m told. And I would agree. It’s a season teeming with celebration, transition and expectation. I started thinking about how I would want to celebrate this milestone in January of last year. How would I celebrate? Have a big party at a hall with a DJ? Go on a trip with my family? Go on a trip with some girlfriends? In truth, by the time my birthday rolls around, we’re near the end of the calendar year and we’ve celebrated most of the other birthdays in our family, that I’m usually just tired come the end of October and don’t feel like planning anything. I also prefer quiet and understated when it comes to my own birthdays.
But, as one’s birthday will often do…I got reflective. I considered what God had been stirring in me in recent years. When you are in the thick of your current season, you can sometimes feel desperate for someone who has been there to speak into your life and give you the assurance of many things: that you’re not alone, that you can not just survive but still thrive, that you’re not irrevocably messing things up . What I began noticing is that it felt even sweeter and more grounding for that person to be several seasons ahead of where I was in life. They weren’t just fresh out of the season I was in, they had weathered my season and many more and yet they were singing louder the praises of our Abba Father, even while recognizing that some of those life experiences and seasons were brutal and hellish. The more I heard, the more I wanted to hear.
“Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled.” Titus 2: 3-5
The first relationship that woke me up to the beauty and impact of a Titus 2 mentoring relationship was a woman named Robin. She started as our realtor in 2013 and very quickly became my spiritual mama. Praise and prayer are always on her lips. Always. She is a friend, a mentor, “Auntie Robin” to my kids. She is family. She filled a gap I didn’t know existed in my life.
Titus 2 is set in the context of false teaching being an issue in the church, so Paul is writing this letter to his coworker, Titus, providing him with a framework for a healthy, fruitful church. A community of disciples of Jesus was (and is) predicated upon sound doctrine—teaching that was accurate and faithful to Jesus’ teachings; that doctrine was taught relationally between the generations: older men to younger men, older women to older women, etc. That’s a very brief synopsis, but you know what I noticed and love about this Titus passage? It’s not about personality types or differences. You know what else I love? It instructs the older women to teach, but not before they’ve checked themselves first. You know what ELSE I love? It does not mean teach as in get up in front of a podium or on a stage or in front of a bible study. Those aren’t the only spaces where teaching occurs. They are valuable and needed, but our daily lives aren’t lived on stages and in front of classes. They exist in the phone calls and texts between meetings or as you’re preparing dinner, during your daily walk or with your kids’ music instructor in between their lessons.
As I mentioned, I had no idea this was a void in my life that I was longing to be filled. As we settled into our new (yet old) church, I noticed a robust community of older women; some who have known me since childhood, others whom I am just getting to know. I had a growing desire to hear their stories, particularly what has kept them tethered to Jesus all these years. So, I decided to ask them. Not only did they graciously agree, but they are also letting me share their responses. My only requirement was that they had to be several seasons ahead of me (think abuelas and beyond).
How I would have loved to have had these conversations either as a group, roundtable style, or one-on-one in person at a coffee shop or in their homes. But I am also glad to have their thoughts in writing for me to return to for years to come when sojourning here feels extra hard or journeying with Jesus comes with challenges I wouldn’t have expected.
The three questions I presented to these ladies were:
- What is something to look forward to about getting older?
- What are some potential blind spots to be on the lookout for?
- What aspect of God’s character has become more real to you in the last 10+ years?
Responses are grouped by number rather than by person; so, you will see all the responses to question #1 together, all the answers to question #2 together and so on. Their responses are anonymous and unedited. Each paragraph is a different person’s response.
What is something to look forward to about getting older?
As I get older, I look forward to one day having grandchildren. But I look forward to it only if my daughter is walking in truth. She walked away from God, and I can only pray that one day she will be restored. I pray that the bible verses she memorized and stored in her heart as a child while participating in AWANAs would one day come to mind in circumstances where God would reveal to her to apply them. I once looked forward to traveling with my spouse, but after the divorce that all changed. Getting older, when you are alone, isn’t fun and can be very lonely at times. As a believer you know you are never alone, but it can be a challenge and, as a human, I struggle sometimes. I rely on the great Comforter to get me through those times.
Becoming wiser; Having better discernment; Prioritizing the things that God would have you do; A deepening love for God and his word; Being a bolder witness for Christ
I have nothing positive to say about getting older, is another stage in our physical growth. Is not a pretty one because it entails pain, physical + emotional. The body changes and does not hold you as sturdy as before so we have to watch how we walk, where we walk and eventually get a cane or a walker or a wheelchair. All these changes hit your emotions and if we are not positive about the outlook on life, depression sets in. I’ve not seen myself as an elderly woman, God has granted me enough energy and positive thinking till the day I die and I’m grateful for that. Yes, I’m old, but I don’t want to be treated as such, especially when people think we are incapable of following thoughts or discussions. Yes, we lose some memory + probably some emotional control, but we are not mental or emotional invalids.
The short answer is to be stronger in the Lord and my experience of Him. The older you get, the more memories of life you have. It’s great! Conversation is far more interesting when it’s rich with personal experience. When you know God personally and have experienced his saving grace, getting older is simply an opportunity to experience more of God and His wonderful grace every day that you live for all that he has planned for you/me. I’ve been blessed to see my children marry well and have children and to have some (but not all) living nearby. Getting older gives me more opportunity to do things that the busyness of young years (working and raising a family) may not allow. Having your health is a BIG blessing because then you can do more, but what if you don’t?? Then God has something for you to do that will give satisfaction and purpose and joy in whatever situation you are. God has a perfect plan for each of us. It’s wonderful to look forward to His plan for older years. They will be good years because He is good. Even losing my husband very suddenly at 59 has allowed me blessings of travel and ministry I never would have anticipated for myself but that I absolutely LOVE! It was a major detour to my journey, but…God has shown me His goodness and that he equips us for whatever he allows. I could actually write A LOT on this subject. That God is faithful in ALL things He allows. Nothing happens without his permission. I believe that with all my heart.
Something I have enjoyed about getting older is the adult relationship I have with my girls. I’ve enjoyed watching them grow and mature and live independently, even if I haven’t agreed with all their decisions. And of course, becoming a grandmom soon. I can’t wait for that, to pour into and love my daughter’s child! What a blessing.
Having more time with yoiur husband as your children grow and move out. Having grandchildren!!! Embrace getting older, with age comes wisdom.
There are quite a few wonderful things to be looking forward to as you age. One day you will stop having your period. Now this also means no more children but I am thinking you may not be wanting any more at this point. There are a few quirks to going through menopause but once you’re on the other side it will be great. Second, once your children start to fly from the nest, you will have more time on your hands. Many women go into business or start doing something that they started to do when they were teenagers. I started to think about writing during that time, taught myself to quilt and started to look into family history. You can choose to work on your relationship with Jesus. I’ve done much more in-depth study of the word as I’ve gotten older, and God has blessed me tremendously. He never stops blessing His daughters who choose to seek Him. Then you in turn can teach others. And we never “arrive”! The more we learn and know, the more we see how little we know.
What are some potential blind spots to be on the lookout for?
I’m not sure how to answer this. Potential spiritual blind spots can be feeling sorry for yourself, I guess, and allowing yourself to sink into a depression. I have been very close to the precipice of falling into that state, but praying, meditating, and reading Scripture soothes the soul. Keeping yourself active, busy with family and friends helps to avoid this stumbling block.
Being careful to discern the truth of God’s word and search the scriptures; seek Godly advice when necessary; looking to God only when having to make a decision and not the world or well-intentioned friends.
Keeping up to date in your spiritual walk: your study time, your church service, your Christian fellowship with your Christian community, etc. Age effects your behavior so be careful with controlling anger, negativism and your tongue.
You MUST keep your eyes on Jesus and make time for him! He will strengthen you for whatever you deal with. For whatever! It’s a discipline that is essential for spiritual strength to see you through the difficulties and challenges of life. It comes through that strong personal relationship, which comes through knowledge of God’s word. All believers know it’s important, but it’s easy for other things to take priority. A workout at the gym should not trump time with Jesus. You make the choice as to the way you use your time, which is so very precious. Stay connected to the church. Ultra important. We NEED the body of Christ. In today’s culture other idols can easily begin to push out that which is more important. Remember, children learn what they live. And people are watching us as well.
Easy question as it’s very easy in mid life/older age to “coast” and become complacent. Your faith is deep and real, but it’s easy to get lazy and to allow distractions to creep in.
Illness, whether it’s you, your husband or your children, you can never prepare yourself for illness.
Unfortunately there are some! We tend to think that just because we’re getting older that Satan will stop bugging us – he doesn’t! We tend to think that we’ve learned our lessons and sin will no longer have any hold on us – beware of that type of thinking. “Be on the alert lest Satan get an advantage over you.” 2 Corinthians. I went through a breakdown when I was in my 50s and it was partially from spiritual reasons. I had lapsed into some gossip that got me into trouble.
What aspect of God’s character has become more real to you in the last 10+ years?
I believe God’s faithfulness is clear and has become more real to me in the past years. He has delivered me from trials and deep, deep waters. He has given me joy during troubling circumstances and has given me great peace when I asked for it. During the trials all I wanted was peace and peace alone. When I moved to a new home, I moved to Bensalem to a quiet over 55 community called Village of Salem Manor. At the time, the meaning of “Bensalem” was unbeknownst to me. God brought me to live in a town called “Bensalem” – meaning “Son of Peace” and “Salem” Manor meaning “Peace Manor (house)”. Isn’t that wild? You can’t get more peaceful than that! So yes, the Lord’s faithfulness is a characteristic I am keenly aware of. If you seek and ask Him, the Lord is faithful to respond according to His will for you.
God’s faithfulness – He became my husband after the death of my beloved husband; Adonai – my master; My Shepherd -Jehovah Rahi; El Shaddai – the all sufficient one; Rapha – the Lord who heals; Shalom – He is my peace; He is El Elyon – the God most high
His unlimited mercy to forgive all sin without works or merit. To erase the Catholic teachings I grew up with till I was 36, the year I got saved, took a long time to make the transition to a Baptist believing Christian. His love + mercy, His presence and answer to prayer. His care + compassion for me and my sinful nature is what has become more real as I grow up and for my senior years.
Definitely, His sovereignty. That He is in control of ALL things. And I have to also say His omnipresence…He’s always there! He was there the day my husband died, He was there when I was hit by 4 reckless teenagers who didn’t see a stop sign, totaling my car, but…it’s not mine anyway…all I have belongs to God. God allowed that to happen. He also was well aware of COVID and how we would respond to it. He is conducting my symphony. I just must “play my instrument” to His glory. He has numbered my days and I choose to have joy in the journey until He takes me home. A favorite verse: Deuteronomy 33:25, “As your days are, so shall your strength be.”
God’s presence with me and the fact that He “sees” me (my all time favorite Bible story is Hagar). This stage of lie can be lonely, kids are grown, work pulls us in different directions, energy is less (at least for me). I treasure the fact that God sees me, my weaknesses, my failures, etc. and loves me anyway. When things go wrong and life is scary, He sees me and is present with me every second.
God’s faithfulness and his mercy! He has blessed me so much but I think with this past year of cancer, treatment and almost dying, He has showed me that no matter what He loves me, and is faithful. I see the evidence of His goodness all over my life! Continue to put Him first! This doesn’t mean you won’t have trouble, but the closer you are to Jesus, He will see you through and His way is best. We may not understand at the time how good can come from such heartache, but it does!
Where do I begin?! I think of where God tells Moses His name – and it’s all His character. “And the LORD passed by before him, and proclaimed, “The LORD, The LORD God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and loving kindness, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the inquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children’s children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.” Exodus 34: 6-7. His mercy is great, unbelievable at times. His promise to be with us even when we are old has kept me in the fight many a time – “and even to your old age I am he; and even to grey hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you.” Isaiah 46: 4
Bonus Nuggets
I got bonus wisdom-nuggets from two of the women. I am grateful for their overflow! Here is what they had on their hearts to share…
Nugget 1: And just as a side note (bonus question!) – I really hate the way society views aging. It’s an honor to be blessed with a long life. It’s a blessing to mature, be kinder to yourself and others as you learn to let “nonsense” go. I’ve had two very dear friends who passed away in their 50s. It taught me to appreciate life and all of God’s blessings. Not everyone gets to age. I turned 57 in December, no shame in that! Now, I do wish aging didn’t come with wrinkles, achy joints, forgetfulness, etc., but overall I still consider it a privilege.
Nugget 2: Let me add this little thought: We can’t control everything, in fact we are not in control of anything!! God is, He has ordained every step of our life to go according to His plan! He still allows us to choose, that’s where we get into trouble. We don’t always seek Him in all our decision making. So when we make choices out of His will or plan He has to bring us back. One example I will give is when I chose to do chemo. I truly believe the Lord brought me through the blood clots in my lungs in July and the whole life support and hospital stay to tell me “no more chemo! You asked me to heal you now let me heal you!”. I decided not to do anymore chemo until I received the results of my DNA cancer cell test and that’s where Jesus really showed off with a negative result! No live cancer cells in my body. Trust the Lord in ALL things and seek his will. It’s always what is best!
Final Thoughts
As I mentioned at the beginning, I wish these Q+A snippets could have been fleshed out in full conversations as these women gave honest glimpses into the innerworkings of walking with Jesus in a fallen world with death, decay and depression; with dreams unmet and wounded relationships. I am reminded of a quote from Elisabeth Elliot’s Suffering is Never for Nothing that says, “…The cup ye drink was at the lip of sweet Jesus, and He drank of it.” And, He trusted His Abba, still. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 strengthens us with this, “So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary afflication is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”
I had already received the responses from these seasoned saints when I came across an Instagram Reel by Jackie Hill Perry that spoke directly to what was the impetus for this whole endeavor, and so I leave you with that reel with wise words from Dr. Sarita Lyons.